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What?

Ok, i might sound like a super mature auntie in this post but on a serious note,

Ive been thinking about things like "where do i go?" , " what should i do?" 

And ive been questioning about life. (( guess its because of o level stress ))

ok fine, i dont exactly feel "stress" but im stress because i dont feel stress.

Arent I suppose to be like "omg i need to study" but nope. didnt happen.

To be honest, its really because i dont know what i want with my life.

ive said that idk if my choice is right for life

and this is actually ruining me. 

what if im serious about my choice? thn i dont exactly have to study THAT hard. 

what if its really just a moment of crazy-ness? thn should i study hard? 

even now, i should be actually doing my homework but im just here, typing away.

You guys wont even know how frustrated i am right now. 

That feeling of wanting to do something and you're not doing it even though you know you can and you should.

Teachers always say "you need a goal, a dream, a passion"

PSST PLEASE. ITS NOT THAT EASY.

especially when you have stupid choices in your head and dont know whether you really want it or not.

I mean, if the chance is given to me RIGHT NOW (( about my choice )), i would definitely go for it. 

But the problem is, 2 years down the road, will i still want this? 

I dont have the power to go for it right now so if i wait, will this passion of mine fade?

What can i do to find out all the answers i need? 

I dont have the time to wait around. What exactly do i need to do.

You guys probably dont even find my post making sense.