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Messy.

I dont know what happened, but my life is in a mess right now.

Not with things that happen around me but with myself.

Is this call over-thinking? i dont know. i dont think so.

There are so many things i need answers to. My present and future. 

Even right now, im suppose to be studying. But im doing this.

So probably, instead of saying my life is in a mess, i should say my heart and mind is my a mess.

At times i think to myself, "i must be crazy lol" and at times i think, "shin, this is what you want, go for it." 

OK i know how it sound. but what really do i want? 

It has been MONTHS since i started this battle within myself. So do i really want it? Or will this feeling fade away soon? 

Seeking (life) answers isnt as simple. Infact, its difficult and tiring. Its not like finding x in a math equation or something. 

i dont know i dont know i dont know. help.

i must be insane.